"BUT, Victorious Capitalism!"
i’ve never painted the skyscrapers of the city i grew in (way too short for that). so i became satisfied with sketching those down below (those azuela calls: “los de abajo”) — added some color to the omnipresent gray: to match the souls, i guess.
And honestly, a lot of people talk about immigration reform right now and are trying to posit solutions, and I’m always distrustful of folks that come at me with answers, instead of questions. That are already resolved, in and of themselves through some system of justification whether it be legitimized through the bible, or cheap philosophy, or through a very well-funded political party, instead of asking these agonizing questions of who we are, what we do, and what we mean, and what we should point to.
the most useful, dangerous, meaningful thing i did with my life was sit in a jail cell & think & panic & wonder & remember — then the walls fell around me & i could see my father,mother, son, sister once again, and knew myself better & was happy.
& that alone was a challenge to those around me & above me & i was full. —K.
& this is not AT ALL a romancing of my condition, it is my reality.
The Long Defeat:
We lose because we shortchange ourselves because we’ve been taught to hate so much, to discard analysis for activism because in the intensity of the work you lose sight of yourself because the trauma you’ve witnessed has taken too deep a tool because it is too too hard too hard too hard.
WHY I AM GOING TO MEXICO
Hi, this is Marco, & if you’re watching this it is because I’m currently in a detention center on the Southern border trying to reconnect with my family in New York. I returned to Mexico because I have not seen Grandma Nana (the woman that raised me) in 20 years.
Recently one my aunts died in Oaxaca. Watching my father break at not being able to see his sister was unbearable. His only comfort was helping his family with her burial while hearing the news in NY, 3,000 miles away.
I first left Mexico at the age of three & 20 years later I was done waiting to reconnect with the family I had left behind. I thought that graduating from high school, college, becoming a peer-counselor & a faith-based organizer would save me. I was wrong. Only the community of immigrants & allies can save us from family separation.
It is that firm belief that motivated my decision to leave & the same faith that will allow me to be released & reunited.
I believe that people are worth more than border walls & that it is never a wrong time to go home. I am doing this now the right way. I am getting in line. It is entirely up to the American people to decide my fate.
Weber described the bureaucratization of social order as “the polar night of icy darkness”
The Puritan wanted to work in a calling; we are forced to do so. For when asceticism was carried out of monastic cells into everyday life, and began to dominate worldly morality, it did its part in building the tremendous cosmos of the modern economic order. This order is now bound to the technical and economic conditions of machine production which TO-DAY DETERMINE THE LIVES OF ALL THE INDIVIDUAL…S WHO ARE BORN INTO THIS MECHANISM, not only those directly concerned with economic acquisition, with irresistible force. Perhaps it will so determine them until the last ton of fossilized coal is burnt. In Baxter’s view the care for external goods should only lie on the shoulders of the “saint like a light cloak, which can be thrown aside at any moment.” But fate decreed that the cloak should become an iron cage.
No one knows who will live in this cage in the future, or whether at the end of this tremendous development entirely new prophets will arise, or there will be a great rebirth of old ideas and ideals, or, if neither, mechanized petrification, embellished with a sort of convulsive self-importance. For of the last stage of this cultural development, it might well be truly said: “Specialists without spirit, sensualists without heart; this nullity imagines that it has attained a level of civilization never before achieved.”